MY HEART SHALL SING

Job 29:13  "The blessings of the one ready to perish came upon me, and I made the widows heart sing for joy."

This scripture caught my eye as I was reading.  as Job was recalling when he had favor of the Father and remembering his happy past. But this is not about Job. It is actually about me tonight.  As some perish, others are left to live, amid the emptiness, the picking up the pieces, the memories.  Some do better than others, I am doing better. 

This stops here.  I need to tell you that I had filled this page with events that led up to my husbands death, but as I was writing, I was crying and asking the Lord to let me write about something else.  I just prayed and worshiped Him for a while, crying and asking for something else, for release from this subject.  You see, Friday will be two years since my husband died, and it is not easy for me to put myself out there for all to see my pain, my hurt.  My God is so good to me, He let me erase the body of it.  And He will let me get to the title matter now. I believe He had me put it down just to release it from my spirit that had been holding it in for a few weeks now.  He knows me so well, one of the reasons my heart shall sing.

Because I became one, when for so many years, 35, I had been a part of two, my heart shall sing.  It shall sing because not once since I became one has my Lord left me alone.  He had always been a part of  me but now He became one with me.  Never leaving me alone for a moment, making sure I felt His presence, felt His love.  My heart sings.

Finances being different now, less than before, my heart shall sing.  It sings because my Father has supplied all my needs, seen that His riches from Heaven above flowed down to me, sustaining me in every way.  All the same bills basically, less money, but no shortage.  You see, tithing has been a part of our lives for so long, it never dawned on me not to do so now that there was less money.  If anything it seemed more important now.  And God is true to His Word, obedience leads to His being able to bless in every sense of the word.  My heart sings.

Friends, precious friends, that have been so supportive to me, seeing after everything they thought I needed, so wonderful.  The Lord has blessed me so much with some of the most wonderful friends in the world.  They say you can count yourself blessed if you can count real friends on one hand; I can count real friends on both hands and have to use both feet also.  That only comes from God, blessing with true friends. The kind you can call at anytime and say come, they come, they don't ask why, they just come.  My heart sings.

New friends, Christian friends the Lord has blessed me with.  Friends with words of wisdom and knowledge from God that they share with me.  Friends with encouraging words of scripture, prayers, funny things that make me laugh with joy, and love, so much love.  Love for someone they have only talked to, never met.  That is only through God, only Him.  My heart sings.

And my cherished, most wonderful Lord.  How I love You Lord.  How I love everything about You.  All the reasons above causing my heart to sing some would think enough to praise You for.  But it is not the reason here that my heart sings.  My heart shall sing just because You are my God, just because You are my Maker, the One who formed me, put a homing beacon in my heart that at a certain time in my live, You would draw me to Your Light, homing that Light into the beacon of my heart, causing it to attach itself to You, soldering my heart onto Yours, Lord, so it will never be able to separate from You. This is why my heart shall sing.   My heart sings because I love You so intensely, and knowing as much as I love You, I could never love as You love me.  I don't believe human hearts can possible know that expansion of love, but if it were possible, I would love You that much.  You are everything to me, You have filled every part of my being, my heart is full of love for You, my mind, I keep centerd on You, on Your Word, and my spirit intermingled with Yours, joyful and full of peace. My heart shall sing.

Your presence, Lord.  Your precious presence.  How I long to stay here in Your presence.  You come And this my wonderful, beautiful, magnificent God....is why my heart shall sing.  Every day, all day my heart shall sing.

My heart singing a new song, just for You, my Lord, this 7th day of February, 2011.