MY GOD WHO SEES ME

2 Chronicles 16:9  "For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him."

El Roi, my God who sees me.  My Lord, as I was praying this morning, as I was spending time in Your presence, I asked You, I asked what You saw when You looked at me.  I am just Your child, wanting to know if I am pleasing in Your sight.  Just wanting to know if I am doing what You want me to do, am I walking in the way You want me to, is there something that is not pleasing in me to You.  Is it un-natural to want that assurance, that reassurance that I am doing right, that I am pleasing You. 

You are so faithful to tell me, Lord.  You tell me that by faith, by my faith in You, I am assured in You, that if there is something wrong, You will put the conviction, the conviction brought about by Your love for me, in my spirit, showing me what is not right, showing me the way to correct it, getting it out of me, laying it down at Your feet.  You are faithful to cleanse me from all unrighteousness.  My Lord, how I have come to rely on Your presence with me, I have come to rely on the precious Holy Spirit to show me when I fail to be what I should, when something comes that would hinder my walk, hinder my relationship with You.  All I need to do is lay it down at the foot of the cross, knowing that it will be taken care of, and forgotten by my Father, never coming between us again.

El Roi, my God who sees me, You see me when I am worshiping You, giving You the thanks and glory for Your goodness to me.  You never fail to see me when I am sharing Your love with others.  You see me as I tell others how much I love You, how You are everything to me.  You also see me, tired, weary from my day, straining to hold a smile on my face as I am so very worn down by the pressures of the day, determined not to let satan best me with his chopping away at my shield.  The enemy trying to make me ashamed that I don't have a smile, telling me I should not be weary, all the time knowing that it is his constant barrage that wears on me, on all Your children.  But then comes the evening.

In the evening hours, things change.  El Roi, my God who sees me, watches me ready for bed, watches me worshiping Him as I lie down from my prayers, watching me as I lift my arms up to Him, sending Him a hug goodnight, a whispered note of added thanks and love, and close my eyes to rest.  My God who sees me, takes this time to pour Himself over me, pour Himself into me, into my spirit comes His refreshing strength, into my mind comes a total cleansing of whatever the enemy tried to encamp there, and into my heart comes more and more of His unconditional love.  Then just before morning comes, just before He brings me up from my rest He fills my heart with joy and then floods my entire being with new mercies as my eyes open, and then my spirit eyes see El Roi, my God who sees me, welcoming me to another day, made just for me by Him.

This 25th day of May, 2011, I am looking forward to the night as I know El Roi, my God who sees me will be watching me with love, with joy, and inputing into my soul, my spirit, my entire being, His message to me "My beloved child, in whom I am pleased".